Running has definitely taken its toll on me emotionally, physically, and mentally. I have been injured multiple times, not racing well, and frustrated with training. So many aspects of running seem unfair. I miss the days when running was run and easy. I enjoyed running so much more in high school. It never gave me such pain as it does now.
My sister sent me a text of a quote yesterday ( because she knows how much I love quotes) and it read, "Your friends don't understand what you see in running. They just see how running drags you home early from the best parties. how it kicks you to the curb the next morning before the crack of dawn. They just see the missed lunches, curious stares, and constant mind games. And if they don't see the other stuff by now, odds are the never will." So much truth is in this quote.
Most of my friends at home understand running to a point. but they do not understand how it is running in college. My teammates/friends in college are too wrapped up in it. So I have a set a friends whom don't understand and another group of friends who see nothing but running and live their life FOR running. But where do I fit in?? I love running..(on most days). but it is not my life. My family, friends, and relationship with GOD are far more important to me than running. Sure running gives me joy, but it can not give me what my family gives me. So many people on this team don't understand that. So am I in the wrong place? Should I be running in college? I honestly can say I do not know the answer. All I can do is hope the GOD steers me in the right direction.
That's it for right now. Be back soon!!
With love, Kalli
